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Chapter 17 Note. Bella the Duracell bunny.
Or: only try this at home when you know what you're doing!

Remember back in the day when I first started posting ABD and I promised you all I would step up the pace? Well, here you are, a hell of an intense scene that comes a lot closer to what I personally do than what I usually write. Don't be scared, but I promise you, this one will make you cringe.

At the bottom are the answers to a few questions I got with the last update.
First, Beth's outfit (just remember, Beth is a little more buxom than the model here, hehe):

So what do we need for this chapter? it even comes with a shopping list!
We need, in the order of appearance:

A willing sub, some rope, and one of the most basic forms of breast bondage - a simple harness:

So much for the first part.
Now the second.

I didn't really find the exact picture I was looking for (because I write chapters and look for the pictures afterwards, not the other way round, and apparently my imagination is a challenge even for the wonderful kink.com etc sites) - something pretty close to this is the result you see above (and further down the post)

Reclined bench, legs spread and tied back out of the way, wrists secured - voilà!

Now for the different kinds of equipment mentioned:

You probably know them from a somewhat different setting - and now just imagine how much 'fun' going to the ob/gyn is for me. No, seriously, you don't want to be all horny when you jump up on that chair and spread your legs.

A speculum:

A Foley catheter:

Sounds:

I guess the latex gloves and the plastic syringe (without a needle attached, obviously) are self-explanatory;

A few words about urethral play. If you google it you'll probably get swarmed with pictures and vids where it's done to male subs. I have never understood why female urethral play seems to be more of a taboo. I like it, a lot, and for me it feels insanely good. I'm not alone with it, either, and if you consider the amount of nerve endings in the general region it's no wonder that it's something the body reacts positively to.
The main issue here is keeping things clean. I've had my share of urinary tract infections but never from using sounds. Sterile and/or antibacterial lube is vital, and everything that comes in contact with the peehole needs to be as free of germs as possible.
This is def. not beginner stuff, but you're all here to learn something new, right? ;)

And then, of course, a personal favorite of mine - fisting!

Now if you've read the chapter before you came here you probably got the take-away message already - if not, or if you're still cringing so badly, let me say a few words.

Fisting, or fistfucking, is something that can be immensely pleasurable. Both anally and vaginally for all people with the suitable anatomy. Which are a lot. Usually the problem isn't a physiological one why it doesn't work (right away) but a mental one. It's kind of a big thing - pun intended - if you're considering getting a hand shoved up there somewhere.

Now two things up ahead - there is absolutely no shoving involved, and usually not a fist in so far as what you would punch someone in the face with. At least you don't start out that way, but rather with the fingers of the hand all pressed together - like this:

Also very important, it's all about going slow. Like really slow. The vagina and anus are both muscled tubes, and muscles can be stretched. If you go too fast they will just contract instead, and that's exactly what you want to avoid.

Obviously, no one will try fisting who isn't turned on by the idea of it. I personally find being full and getting stretched great. Naturally I wanted to try fisting; I had the luck of knowing a few people who had done it before and knew what to watch out for - but it's really all about:
wanting it
going slow
and insane amounts of lube!! The saying goes, if you think you're already using too much, use more.

Fisting is certainly one of the more intense things to do. I mean for starters you have to trust someone a lot to do that to you. You also need to be very comfortable with communicating so you can slowly work your way through all kinds of obstacles, mental and physical ones alike; It hurts, even when you do it slowly, but for me at least it's never a bad kind of pain, and it's by far worth the pleasure that comes along once my body has stopped protesting (which after several years happens pretty fast, hehe);
But there are two misconceptions that I already addressed in the chapter, that I want to stress here again:

You don't need to have a roomy vag (either from having given birth, or your downstairs department being rather 'well used' otherwise) - and fisting doesn't leave you gaping or stretched or something. Like with everything else if you do it more often your body will learn, remember, and accommodate faster, but well trained muscles are usually the ones that are the most contractable, too, if you get what I mean.

The take home message from this chapter is simple - fisting is fun!


Now a few words about the chapter and its writing process.
This is actually version 2 of the chapter, there are 3k of the unused first version rotting on my harddrive now. I initially wanted to write it as a medical roleplay scene but that simply didn't work for me. Obviously you can see which part of the idea remained the same, but I like Bella to get a chance to be more active - even when she's completely tied down and forced into physical passiveness - and the re-write is one of the reasons why you had to wait another week for the chapter.

As for why use urethral play? Correct me if I'm wrong, but I think I wrecked a twi fanfic no-go there.
It is also something I personally like doing, and I figured, why not, some of you might appreciate a glimpse into a world that's a few steps farther away from the typical whips and chains BDSM image the media is broadcasting.

There's also a 'smut plot' reason for it, so to say - the bladder is really close to the vagina when you add a hand to the whole anatomy - and I guess you can think by yourself to what kind of accidents that can lead, particularly if you catch the fistee unawares. Awesome if you're into watersports - not so much if your mind is still riling from the idea that someone just successfully pushed their hand into your snatch.

Why fisting? Because I love fisting, it's fun, and I wanted to write it since I decided to take HBR from a one-shot into a real story. I refrained from it so far because of the reactions I got to some of the in my opinion milder things I wrote about, but quite frankly, you've all been warned, I'm sure that at least half of you aren't surprised I went there. I hope you liked it!

Up next, obviously, a non smut chapter, but after this one we all need a cigarette or ten and might enjoy a little friendly conversation between old friends ahead ;) Let the mindfuckery begin.

Now for the Q&A
I got a whole bunch of questions, and as there was no update last weekend and I don't know if I can write the next chapter this week, you get all the answers now - maybe they make you come up with some of your own? ;)

Story related:
Besides Beth, who is your favorite character in ABD?
I'm really having a hard time answering this. I'd say a very close tie between Edward and Jazz.

Have you enjoyed writing ABD or HBR more?
I can't really say it, the answer kind of depends on the feedback I'll get for this chapter - if people are mature enough so I can venture forth and really write whatever I want, or not. The beauty of HBR was to craft a story told by a character the reader could relate to better, so that I could take them by the hand in lead them into my world. And being a woman myself, writing from a female POV is a little easier as I don't have to remind myself constantly to let my main character act like a guy. But I'm terribly in love with writing EPOV, he's so much fun when he's mean :) so right now it's about even, but in a few chapters from now I suspect I will like ABD more.

Will there be a third installment to your stories, or do think ABD will be the last?
That entirely depends on how long ABD will get, and if I feel like there is still something to tell when I reach the point where the story naturally ends. Right now I think there will be no third part, but if I can still come up with something, I know how I would write it. Time will tell! But I won't force the issue either way.

Which of your characters is most like a person you know?
None of them lol okay, maybe Alice is a little like the lovechild of two of my very close friends. All the others, not so much. I know someone who is as outspoken and direct as Beth, but I don't think she would recognize herself in the character. I mean I would love to know all of them personally, but I generally like to create my characters independently of the people I know. Even in fanfic.

Personal questions:
What was your first scene like emotionally? What did you do in it?
It was intense, but mostly because it was my first scene, and helped me a lot to become more comfortable with my kinky side. I think I was high on the adrenaline for a week lol
Physically it was pretty basic, some spanking, I was restrained with cuffs locking my ankles and wrists together at one point, no intercourse but I was made to come twice and learned the hard way that deep-throating when you're in a hog-tie is a rather passive thing. What really blew me away was how easy it was for me to slip into a submissive mindset and not to lose it until the scene was over. Just to feel owned and helpless, it was great!

What is one of your hard limits and why?
My ears are a hard limit. Might sound weird but I get all kinds of crazy when someone blows in my ears, or limits my hearing. I don't mind being gagged and blindfolded, but I need to hear what's going on. Why? Probably because I was nearly deaf as a child from too many inner ear infections. That translates pretty straight into what it is.
As for something less strange, if you want to call it that, I'm a neat freak when it comes to shit, my own in particular. When I know someone or something will come even remotely close to my ass, I'm going to clean it before the scene. And when that's not possible, I insist on anal sex using condoms. It's not about the germs, it's about the idea. I want to be clean. Stat.

Have you ever had a Dom safeword? What were the circumstances?

No but I've watched a scene or two where it has happened. Usually health related issues that suddenly came up, like most of the time safewords are used.

In your relationship, did the D/s come first or the boyfriend/girlfriend?
Kind of a tie. We found each other online in a kinky dating forum, then decided to meet for a play date, but I was too sick to play so we were "stuck" drinking coffee and talking about other things, too. And found out that most of our interests and views match perfectly or clash ideally, and we kind of winged it from there. But the first few times we had sex were all pre-negotiated scenes while we were still 'dating'. And by now, I can no longer differentiate between the two layers of relationships emotionally, nor do I want to. Those are all labels and none of them suffice to describe accurately how things are for me.